smile for me:))

2009-09-08T23:23:00.000-07:00

its you i want.

no,

its you i NEED.

but how can i tell you that?
what would others think?

sucks.

2009-06-11T07:20:00.003-07:00

sweet memories, keep haunting me.

yea, and life just goes on. just like that.. its just going so fast. i wish i could pause it for a while and just think about whats going on and let me digest. or better still, i wish there was more than 24hrs in a day. heh. well, yea.. if i could go back in time, i would change so many things i did. but i guess everything happens for a reason. its justour job to accept things and move on. i learnt that by pondering over why smth has happened, it just makes the whole situation worse. haha. but yea, its difficult not to la.. :D

im damn scared for mid-years. hope i do well!

ronaldo has moved out of manu.. haizzz!

<33

2009-06-03T05:22:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MY SISTER!<33

HELLO!

havent had the time to blog for AGES! june hols are here:D but sadly, i have mid yr common tests starting from the FIRST day of term three. haiz! must mugg mugg mugg. aj tl ROCKED the house at jjc vaanavil! WHOOTS! love them! went for sangamam dat day. saw my loves! missed tham truck loads! <3>

hurt,

but i believe that time has the magic to heal everything.

what goes around comes around.

and life does not revolve around only this, so im just gonna forget that this even happened and move on.

i dont like being like this.

its not me.. its killing everyone arnd me and who care abt me. i want to be myself. this is not going to affect me.

trust me, ill get over it.

JUST WATCH ME!

2009-05-24T22:53:00.000-07:00

okkays, my blog is dying.

AJ concert at rp was awesomeness!

pictures on fb!

didnt go to sch today. hehe! was damn tiredz.

missing you truck loads!

<33

2009-05-11T05:19:00.001-07:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: f&n grape
2. Last phone call: my mum
3. Last text message: my GOOD friend whom i can always rely on :D
4. Last song you listened to: cry by rihanna
5. Last time you cried: erm, its been a while

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: yeah, duh!
7. Been cheated on: nope
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope
9. Lost someone special: yea, but i got my special person back and i never plan to lose them again!
10. Been depressed: duh.
11. Been drunk and threw up: nope

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. pink
13. black
14. red

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: obviously
16. Fallen out of love: nope
17. Laughed until you cried: haha! YES!
18. Met someone who changed you: nope, not this yr.
19. Found out who your true friends were: yea, definitely
20. Found out someone was talking about you: YES! unfortunately.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: nope, im not such a bitch.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: not sure.
23. How many kids do you want to have: 2
24. Do you have any pets: nope.
25. Do you want to change your name: ?? what kind of a stupid qu is this? no.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: i got surprised by my sapta babes! WHOOTS! haha.
27. What time did you wake up today: erm, 7plus.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: hehe!
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: erm, nth to look forward to presently
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 2 mins ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: nth, im contented
32. What are you listening to right now: minnale songs.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yea.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nth, im cool
35. Most visited webpage: my blog
36. Whats your real name: Nandini
37. Nicknames: Nannan, maadu? lol.
38. Relationship Status: -(not applicable for a gd girl like me:D)
39. Zodiac sign: virgo
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary?: CHIJ katong (yea, im a convent gurl)
42. Middle School?: CEDAR GIRLS<33!>
43. High school/college?: Anderson Junior College
44. Hair colour: jet black!
45. Long or short: short
46. Height: 164
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: now? nope!
48: What do you like about yourself?: everything! whats not to like? HAHA.
49. Piercings: ears
50. Tattoos: nope
51. Righty or lefty: right

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: appendix got removed
53. First piercing: ears, when i was like 6 mths
54. First best friend: yagnya! sighs.
55. First sport you joined: i dont rmb
56. First vacation: germany
58. First pair of trainers: i refuse to ans stupid qns

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: nth
60. Drinking: nth
61. I'm about to: ?
62. Listening to: minnale songs
63. Waiting on: nth

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?:yea, 2
65. Get Married?:erm, i dont wanna have kids w/o getting married.
66. Career?: chemical engineering

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: depends on who its with!
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: same age
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: ??
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: erm, none

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: no
78. Lost glasses/contacts: i have great eyesight.
79. Sex on first date: NO.
80. Broken someone's heart: not sure, you tell me
82. Been arrested: no.
83. Turned someone down: haha, yea.
84. Cried when someone died: yea, my grandfather. i cried buckets.
85. Fallen for a friend?: SIGH. haha, unfortunately i once fell for a very good fren.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself:duh.
87. Miracles: yea, i living on miracles
88. Love at first sight: nope
89. Heaven:yea
90. Santa Claus:HELL, no
91. Kiss on the first date: no
92. Angels: yea

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time:?? im not a bitch thanku very much. haha.
95. Did you sing today?: i had choir today.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: nope
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: sec4 amd redo os
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: SIGH.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: nope

2009-05-06T07:22:00.000-07:00

AJCHOIR GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS!
:D
SO HAPPY!

today was GREAT! :D

haha. im so so happy. and well, as i was coming hme i met sindhu.. we had a nice long talk. haha. haizz. today was just so awesome. like really.. no words to express myself. haha!

well..tmr must hand in pi FINAL COPY! OMGawdd! so fasttttt. haha. but.. im still happy:D well, but as usual, for every happy thing there must be smth sad to counter. just like NEWTONS THIRD LAW: every action has an equal and opposite reaction. haha.

well, gotta go do wad i gotta do.
i love LOVE LOVE my ajchoir.

no importa la distancia!

i love you baby!

2009-04-22T06:43:00.000-07:00

VANESSA!

I MISS GETTING LETTERS FROM YOU AND WRITING LAME STUFF TO YOU! I MISS MY EX TABLE PARTNER! dae, we shld continue writing to each other. i still have ALLLL the lame notes we passed esp during TAMIL CLASS! oh mann we were hilarious. hahahhahah. wen you were sitting next to AISHWARYA ALAGAPPAN more commonly known as AA. LOL. hahahah. oh mann, good times.i miss everything damn it :X

went back to cedar that day to collect SGC. saw MR omer and this was the conversation we had.

MR omer: ahh, apparom? unn aalu eppadi irrukkanga?
ME:(thinks to self) *this is called POTTU VAANGARAANING* yaaru sir?*gives innocent look*
MR omer: neeyae yaaruintu sollu paarpoam
ME: erm, theriyalaiyae, sindhu?
MR omer: illai
ME: rufina?
MR omer: illai
ME: OHH, sha issit?
MR omer: *laughs* ada illai ma, nalla yosichu paaru.
ME: OMG! are you talking abt VANESSA? hahahah.
MR omer: aamam. renndu paerum sec4le thaniya irutnthu paarthathae illai. appadi enna thaan paesiniinga?
ME: haha, onnum illai sir! *gives ANGELIC look*
MR omer: sari, ippo aval eppadi irruka? innum kalakkittu thaana irrukka?

HAHAHAH.
MISS MY TAMIL TCHR LOADS!

your such an idiot,
but you're MY idiot!
or not?
HAHA.

LOVEX!

2009-04-21T07:25:00.000-07:00

has been AGES since ive blogged and tonnes of stuff have happened:D

so many tests, and im starting to slack so so much damn it! :X

met sindhu yst and boy did we have loads to discuss. went back o my dear cedar.and my wonderful cedar choir got GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!! LOVE MY JUNIORS TO BITS! haha. we were all like damn high before and after the result. tears were shed. haha. only realised how much i missed my babe when i met her. haha. miss all the times we shared and you came over to my hse to STUDY PHYSICS! HAHA! oh mann.. good times. and when we used to be like practically in opposite classrooms and msg each other. haha. i miss my SAPTA loosus too. haha. and not forgetting my vanessa and my class and my wonderful choir. haizz.

well, loads of mugging to do in aj. syf coming up on 5th may. common tests all killing us too. but mira is like totally keeping me company. which reminds me HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIREX! haha. its crazy..

well, thats all for now!

as we say it,
MUCH LURBES<33
:D

2009-04-11T07:46:00.000-07:00

i wish today would have lasted longer.

erm,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ONE AND ONLY SISTER :D

shes officially a teen now.

if only i have more time with you.

2009-04-10T05:39:00.000-07:00

AFTER READING VANESSA'S BLOG IVE CONCLUDED THAT SHE IS BORED STIFF..

i mean saving words? youve lost it babe! hahah:)

im loving every moment.

never wanna let it go.
be mine, be all mine babeh!

2009-03-30T06:08:00.000-07:00

This is called 50 FIRST REACTIONS. Type what comes to your mind FIRST whenever you see these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random it is, just type it!
1. Beer: yucks!
2. Food: MEE GORENG!
3. Relationships: friendship.. the best relationship you can ever get.
4. Your Crush: *ahem*
5. Power Rangers: TAXI! HAHAH.
6. Life: life is a fallacy
7. The President: OBAMA! haha.
8. Yummy: MILO!
9. Cars: zoom zoom. URGH! why did i think of DAT? (sorry sangee haha)
10. Movies: Slumdog millionaire
11. Halloween: CHOCOLATES(:
12. Sex: ERM.
13. Religion: God.
14. Hate: LOVE<33
15. Fear: seas
16. Marriage: kalyaanam thaan kattikittu oodi polamaa? HAHA. no.
17. Blondes: dumb blondes.
18. Slippers: sexaye feet!
19. Shoes: nike.
20. Asians: SO MUCH FOOD!
21. Pass Time: msn., phone..
22. One Night Stand: nth seems to hit me now..
23. My Cell Phone: over used!
24. Smoke: GROSS.
25. Fantasy: SIGH!
26. College: VJ? ohh, wait im supposed to think of AJ. okkay, fine AJ.
27. High School Life: CEDAR! CEDAR! CEDAR! CEDAR! YAYNESS!
28. Pajamas: family day. haiz..
29. Stars: ME! lol.
30. Center: of attention? haha! ME OF COURSE. haha.
31. Alcohol: gross.
32. The Word Love: a beautiful thing
33. Friends: your source of strength, people you can always turn to and be yourself around.
34. Money: fluctuating
35. Heartache: love
37. Divorce: painful
38. Dogs: ADORABLE
39. Undies: erm.
40. Parents: LOVE them<33>
41. Babies: cho chweet!
42. Ex: erm.
43. Song: nejukkul peithidum
44. Color: PINK
45. Weddings: beginning of a new end
47. Hangout: AMK
48. Rest: SLEEP
49. Goal: chemical engineering
50. Inspiration: my parents

2009-03-21T01:16:00.000-07:00

SINCE MY ONLY FORM OF COMMUNICATION WITH VANESSA IS THROUGH FACEBOOK OR MY BLOG, I WISH TO INFORM HER THAT I MISS HER!

haha.

im so damn tired. went to vj on friday. SIGH. it was good, but it was bad. SIGH. well.. erm, lately ive been finding out WEIRD stuff.. i dont know how to feel abt them so im sticking to a NEUTRAL stand.

hahaa. and on a brighter note, a very HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to my darlingg CLAIRE(:

so yea.. DAMN THIS.
IT AINT MEANT TO BE.

2009-03-17T07:04:00.000-07:00

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering howlong you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at allfine.When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ...Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.who calls you back when you hang up on him.who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kissesyour forehead.Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.Who holds your hand in front of his friends.Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky heis to have you.Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

i found that guy. but i think i just lost him because of my stupidity. will i ever get you back?

well, i just came back from choir camp. it was totally AWESOME! the NIGHTWALK was damn damn damn damn damn scary lah! me and claire were SCREAMING our way throughout. and johnny's station was SO FREAKING SCARY!!!! ARGH! and the pe dept station.. HAHAHHAHAH. i rather not mention my reaction. *tears* haiz.. no drums? but we heard it! haha! it was so fun! AJChoir camp '09 ROCKED! hahahaha :D

well..
i guess thats all for now. saturday was DAMN fun as well. hahah*remembers the cedar cheers and feels proud*
CEDAR ROX!

2009-03-14T16:54:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

haha. REALLY?

those who know me well will know!(:

and lorraine, i dont miss you cause WE ARE IN THE SAME SCHOOL. but i miss being in you class dear. and i miss you loads niro!

2009-03-10T05:56:00.000-07:00

I MISS SINDHU
I MISS RUFINA
I MISS VAYNII
I MISS SANGEE
I MISS GEETHA
I MISS VANESSA
I MISS CEDAR.

sigh.
i miss you too. dont know if you know it.. but yea.
if i could reliv my life, i would never have left.
really.

but what to do?
it cant be undone.
and my stupid EGO does not allow anything else.

well,
i have to live with the mistakes i made.
the great memories.
i still feel that it was always meant to be

LOVEX<33

2009-03-02T05:11:00.000-08:00

Quiz for the bordest person on earth- ME!

1) Who was your FIRST prom date?
prom? what prom?
2) Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
love? you mean crush right.. sigh YES.
3) What was your 1st alcoholic drink?
red wine.
4) What was your FIRST job?
i dont have the BAD habit of working. haha
5) What was your FIRST car?
im too young to drive!
6)Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
erm.. bernice?
7) Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
haizz..
8) Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
mrs Aw was it?
9) Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
London:D
10) Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk?
Yeggie! unfortunately we still talk. HAIZ. she is my cousin. do i hav a CHOICE? haha.
11) Where was your FIRST sleep over?
my aunt's place. friend was Noor's house(: hahah. crazy times.
12) Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
my mum.
13) Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
erm.. someone i dont even know?
14) What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
check my phone
15) What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
dont rmbb!
16)FIRST tattoo?
i dont do tattoos. its not my thang!
17)First piercing?
ears!
18) First foreign country you've been to?
London(:
19)FIRST movie you remember seeing?
erm.. does Mulan count?
20) When was your FIRST detention?
i dont do detention. IM GOOD:D haha.
21) What was the first state you lived in?
singapore?
22) Who was your FIRST roommate?
i dont share room with anyone.
23) If you had one wish. What would it be?
to relive my sec2 year. SIGH. i wouldnt have done soooo many things.
24) What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
i would learn to psychology!

2009-02-07T06:11:00.000-08:00

IM MISSING IT.

THE MORE I THINK OF IT,

THE MORE I WANT TO BELIEVE ITS JUST A BAD DREAM

I WONDER HOW MUCH LONGER I HAVE TO LONG FOR IT TO HAPPEN.

I MISS YOU,

I MISS MY CEDAR.

urgh!
why is this happening to me?

2009-01-26T06:46:00.000-08:00

IM NOW OFFICIALLY AN AJCIAN! hahaha.

there are like soooo many cedarians in aj it almost feels homely. but i miss my cedar. i miss my choir. i miss my 4i. i miss my friends. i miss my saptas. i miss sec4. SIGH. its a new beginning.. slowly getting used to the school compounds and the way things are run in aj.. i guess cedarians will always be cedarians on the inside even if we are wearing some other uniform on the outside.

well, i got into the aj choir after a an interview and an audition and i have surprisingly been put into SOPRANO. haha. im super super happy that i got choir lah.. i also just got my subject combination. i got my first choice, which is chem, phy,math and geog. yayness! so ya.. so far things have been really fun and all, besides the whole missing cedar bit. haha. i guess we all miss the whole lot of nthusiasm we had in cdar as well as the undying cedar spirit which the magnificent class of 2008 displayed.

and of course, during the last week of hols soooo many unexpctd information came out of lots of people. hahah. well, i guess some things weree JUST meant to be.. if you know what i mean(:

THATS ALL FOR NOW!
hopefully i will be able to find time from my BUSY schedule to update my blog frequently.

cant wait for valentines day/cedar fiesta!
hope to see everyone there(:

MUCH LOVE<33

2009-01-06T17:29:00.000-08:00

wow, so many things have happened.

well, fistly i have already watched TWILIGHT. totally awesome movie. sighh. edward is so perfect and dreamy.. it makes me wonder loads of stuff. haha. and well, now im in vietnam. came here on the 2nd and ill be coming back to singapore today. i have been having such an incredible time. caught up alot with my cousins. haha. that was niceee! i did SOOOOO much shopping and went for like menicure and pedicure yst. i feel good. but results are gonna be out soon. ARGH! i feel so confused about it.

well, until the results come out we will all be waiting totally anxiously.

much lurv!
<33

2008-12-20T19:20:00.000-08:00

IM FEELING HIGH

SO IM TYPING IN CAPS

LALALALALA!

HAHAHAHAH.

my sister got cedar(:
yea, its whole FAMILY of cedarians! yayness(:

i wanna watch twilight. and its been AGES since i blogged.

cant wait for christmas!

i wanna believe in everything that you say.
cause u sound so good.

haiz.

im so happy abt the the things that have happened during the holidays.
YAYNESS.

i seriously dont know what you did or said to get things in order.
thankyou.

2008-11-14T01:25:00.000-08:00

well, yst was rihanna's concert which i did NOT go for.
sigh.
but i heard that it was good! hehe. unfortunately chris brown was not there. you know why? cause i was holding him hostage in my house!! hehe!

hmmm, i did the stupidest thing on earth. i kind of like deleted my friendster account due to my uncontrollable temper. damn it. well, my wonderrrful brother told me a wonderful way to control it. im so gonna follow his advice(:

smile all the way!
it brings you a long distance!

sing a sad song just to turn it around:D

2008-11-13T05:40:00.000-08:00

today was FUN!

SAPTAs went to Mr Omer's house! His wife cooks very well! And my O levels are over!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEE! well, today i was supposed to meet my MUM! haha. i love you mum! i was supposed to rebond my hair today but due to UNFORSEEN circumstances, i could not. hahaha. today i made sapats wait for me for 1hr! hahah they went 2 rounds around the lrt stations. hahah! love you guys loads! so patient.. lol. well..

funny conversations. good times. wonderful memories.

hazel brown eyes, beautiful hair, and i cant rmb teh rest. HAHA. that was how i was described by someone! hahaha.. well.. thankyou!

everytime i think it gets closer, we move apart.

2008-11-03T03:11:00.001-08:00

oh my!

its been AGES since i blogged.

well, what can i say?

my immense level of concentration as paid off since all the papers i have taken so far (except physics) were actually pretty good. well, hope to get my 6 points and go vj!

anw, i guess some things werent meant to be. if you dont wanna cooperate and tell me whats wrong, i cant correct it can i? you mean alot to me and you know it. hiding things is not going to solve anth.

and, i keep falling deeper.

each time.

because, you make me love you!

love is not blind, its retarded-Vaynii(:

2008-09-27T02:44:00.001-07:00

Some times i just dont understand,
why things happen the way they do.

Well, i know one thing for sure,
ask your friends.

Your true friends will know.

Well, these past few days have not exactly been going in a wonderful way.

Sigh, i dont know the meaning of it.

Well, i am quite upset over some things..

But somehow, it seems so.. insignificant.
SIGH. i wonder.

i miss _you_. 5 mins a day is not enough for me..

Os are coming up real soon.

FOCUS.
FOCUS.
FOCUS.

i want you.
i want you now.

2008-09-19T05:59:00.001-07:00

complications.

sometimes decisions in life are really difficult.

i feel your pain my dear, i really do.

but just hang in there. im sure its just a rough patch for you. things can only go up from here.

i want to eat chocolates!!!
ROAR!
and for some weird reason, which im sure is quite unexplainable, my body muscles are aching all overr!
why is this happening to me.

wait.
stop.
what am i doing?

i am supposed to smile no matter what!
(:
SMILE!
okkays.
sorry, im losing it..
SIGH!

2008-09-16T05:19:00.000-07:00

TRUST..

the most important thing in a relationship. be it between best friends, a couple or between parents and children. but somehow, you just cant seem to trust everyone. hmmm.. something to think about..

okkays. anw, this is the conversation between me and sindhu.
me: *going on about anth stupid*
~awkward silence~
sindhu: ok.. so what's your point?
~thinking time~
me: i dont know. OMG sindhu! i am talking with no POINT damn it! XD

this just goes to prove that we are all going insane after too much mugging. SIGHS. im not going to school tmr. i miss my friends! have not seen them for like AGES. and somemore ms VANESSA and ms SINDHU deserted me in school today. thankfully i had vay and rufina to keep me company(: hehe! okkays. i guess thats all for now! till next time,

ADIOS!

2008-09-13T02:12:00.000-07:00

yy:which JC should i go to?
thalai: go where your heart tells you to.. or rather your L1R5 brings you to(:

and my L1R5.. brings me no where):

ok, so yesterday wasnt exactly the best day for me.

but it will get better right?

WRONG!

sigh, im so depressed. and i feel like an ass. i should really be shot! and the best part is, i dont even KNOW why i am depressed. i just want to SCREAM it out!!!

but, i cant.
so now what?

i dont know!

ok, so sindhu says that _________ is the most affected person in this whole mess. but have you thought about me? im sure you are affected by it. but please understand, so am i. (probably more than you)

but, i guess i have learnt something valuable here. TREASURE YOUR FRIENDS DAMN IT! XD

true friends are those who stick by you through times of trouble, pain and fun. (like CHEWING GUM! lol. ok sorry)

2008-09-11T05:28:00.000-07:00

beautiful days.

all that i have dreamt of.

sighs.

sometimes i think its a dream and try to wake myself up, only to find that it is true.

thank God for that.

you put that smile on my face, a genuine one.

just hearing your voice makes me feel so many things.

it makes me think about you, all the time.
you're driving me crazy and i love it. dont stop(:
i dont think thats the only thing im in love with.

2008-09-02T04:18:00.000-07:00

thankyou guys SO MUCH.
to my SAPTAS, MUM and everyone else who had agreed.

i dont know what to say. the surprise party was amazing. haha.. the PEOPLE and all(:
much love to all<33

well, what can i say?

lunch at the beach was awesome. AND.. so was everything else :P
loads of unexpected things happened. but loads of expected things happened too.. SIGH.

sometimes i really wonder, if that is the real reason.
but whatever it is, i believe you know what is best, both for you and for me.

SMILES!

well, on a brighter note, i thinking smiling is good for me! hehe(: well, all thanks to someone i was able to smile throughout the day yst all the way till 3am!!! hahah! amazing lah you.

ohh, btw, this part is dedicated to MY WORST ENEMY(: :

YOU OWE ME A CHOCOLATE COS I WON THE BET!! HAHAHAHA!

amazing day it was yesterday! (:

three words to describe yours truely:
1)DAZED
2)INTOXICATED
3)INFATUATED?? nah.. haha!

hmmm.. go figure(:

2008-08-25T06:01:00.000-07:00

YAYNESS!

prelims are over. i am a happy little girl once again(:

went to the temple with sindhu and mummy.

i have learnt smth very impt.
be happy.
life is filled with surprises.
enjoy it.

afterall,
it is said that happiness is just a teardrop away<33

H
A
P
P
I
N
E
S
S

2008-08-23T05:31:00.000-07:00

stop and stare..
you start to wonder why your here not there..

yea. im wondering what the hell im doing, stuck here.
when i could be there and, more importantly,
with you.

yea i know that everyone gets scared, but i've become what i cant be..
ohh, do you see what i see.

i doubt it..
you hardly even see me.
let alone seeing what i have become..

ARGH!
what is WRONG with meeeee!
its not LIKE me to be this emo!!
i want to be my high and crazy self.
can you not be you loving self once again?

prelims(:

hehe!

moday last ppr.
CHEM ppr1!

LURV<33

2008-08-06T07:28:00.000-07:00

Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%?We have all been to those meetings where someone wants over 100%.How about achieving 103%? Here's a little math that might prove helpful.What makes life 100%?

If A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z is represented as:1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

Then,H A R D W O R K
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

K N O W L E D G E
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

But,A T T I T U D E
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

And,
B U L L S H I T
2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20 = 103%

So, it stands to reason that hardwork and knowledge will get you close, attitude will get you there, but bullshit will put you over the top.
And look how far .........

A S S K I S S I N G
1+19+19+11+9+19+19+9+14+7 = 118%
will take you.

hmm, that explains why some people have gotten so far in what they have wanted to achieve. they have completely managed to CHANGE other people's minds with their insane tactics of asskissing(: haha, but since your SOOOO good at it, i guess you win. not only did you win this but also my..

<33

2008-08-04T05:23:00.000-07:00

me: VAY! i cant WAIT to read breaking dawn mann!
(sangee enters class)
me:sangee do you know that they have just released breaking dawn?
sangee: what is breaking dawn?
me: AIYO! breaking dawn lah!
vay: she has NO CLUE what your talking about nandini!
sangee: i know! its a movie right? ehh, you guys watching ah?
me: erm, no. its not a movie. you know twilight, new moon.. the fourth book is breaking dawn.
sangee: *gives cute look* OHH! erm,... hahaha

HAHAH!
she was damn cute today! hmmm..

you leave me breathless<33
and one look into your eyes makes all my worries fly away.

somewhere over the rainbow!!

sighs:)

2008-08-02T06:57:00.000-07:00

I WANT TO BE WITH YOU!

if thats ok with you<33

why are you not here with me now?
can you not feel my extreme sense of longing to be with you?

I WANT ____________

and i always get what i want:)

2008-08-01T06:30:00.000-07:00

well,
what can i say?

some things in life just go wrong no matter how much you plan them.

and to ms VANESSA, your right. today NEVER happened. we wasted so much TIME(which we could have spent eating BTW) and smses. haha. i think i was just being an egoistic ass. *GRINS* anw my dear, get out of your denial for gods sake! haha. INNOCENT? oh come on, gimme a break!

and to AISHWARYA alagappan, you know your the HOTT topic in our class now. and i have like LOADSA pictures of you. and coming from me, it says alot cause everyone knows that i.. well lets say MOSTLY take photos of myself. but we gotta give it to you my dear. i mean sleeping right under the teachers nose? that IS a skill.. right vanez? hmmm. okkays.

*thoughts flash across my mind*

tmr got physics mock test.

i love yesterday<33>
i wish it could happen over and over again, if ya know wad i mean..

2008-07-26T05:35:00.000-07:00

RACIAL HARMONY DAY

and now for RHD photos.

me and geetha

MY WONDERFUL TAMIL CLASS! gonna miss dem loadsies next yr,

and of course not forgetting my FAVOURITE mr omer!!

yours truely:))

hmmm, so much to say, so little time. first pix i have with vanez alone. sigh.. im gonna miss loadsa things abt u my dearrr.. we're so DIFFERENT and yet we get along so well.. my sweetheart who still owes me a NOTE!!! haha lurv ya<33>

and of course, last but not least my sweet angelic yet devilic little sister:)

and lastly, i LOVE YOU RUFINA and SINDHU. sorry no sapta photos. we have them in our heart!

2008-07-21T21:08:00.000-07:00

can i not get one word, just one word out of you.

feeling stressed and depressed once again.
so many tests..
prelims coming so so near!

and yet you dont understand do you,
they say show dat i dont need you to live.

but how can i show smth that is not true..

i keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love<33

racial harmony day was fun until you came about.

will upload pictures soon:))

2008-07-12T07:13:00.000-07:00

upset.

leave me alone.

and to everyone who does not like my attitude, dont mix with me

i'm not compelling anyone to be my friend.

yes, i am anti-social.

live with it.

prelims coming up.

just want to be alone.

forgive me for my bad attitude,

i know im not on good terms with alot of people.

sorry, its not you, its me,
perhaps i was in denial.
but now im clear.

2008-07-06T22:23:00.000-07:00

hmmm..
since i am a LIT student, let me analyse what u tagged on my blog.

analysing in progress...

please wait to collect the analysis.

report:
YOU ARE JEALOUS!

haha, you idiot.all guys have a huge ego lah. i just uploaded the picture to.. u know! idiot:))

ohh, and to YOU! you will never get it! what you want that is my dear<33>

2008-07-06T17:14:00.000-07:00

credit to alethea:) for the picture.

2008-07-06T04:32:00.000-07:00

me?
attitude?
i dont know what your talking about!
you guys are all deluded :P

im a good gurl:))

and yes aishwarya, we love you too<33
right vanessa?
*hehe*

2008-07-02T05:09:00.000-07:00

one of my favourite songs,
so much meaning.
only, some people dont understand it.

சகியே.. சினேகிதியே
காதலில் காதலில் காதலில் நிறமுண்டு
சகியே.. சினேகிதியே
என் அன்பே அன்பே உனக்கும் நிறமுண்டு

பச்சை நிறமே பச்சை நிறமே..
இச்சை ஊட்டும் பச்சை நிறமே..
புல்லின் சிரிப்பும் பச்சை நிறமே..
எனக்குச் சம்மதம் தருமே..
பச்சை நிறமே பச்சை நிறமே..
இலையின் இளமை பச்சை நிறமே..
உந்தன் நரம்பும் பச்சை நிறமே..
எனக்குச் சம்மதம் தருமே..
எனக்குச் சம்மதம் தருமே..
எனக்குச் சம்மதம் தருமே..

இரவின் நிறமே இரவின் நிறமே..
கார்காலத்தின் மொத்த நிறமே..
காக்கைச் சிறகில் காணும் நிறமே..
பெண்மை எழுதும் கண்மை நிறமே..
வெயிலில் பாடும் குயிலின் நிறமே..
எல்லாம் சேர்ந்து கூந்தல் நிறமே..
எல்லாம் சேர்ந்து கூந்தல் நிறமே..

வெள்ளை நிறமே வெள்ளை நிறமே..
மழையில் உடையும் தும்பை நிறமே..
வெள்ளை நிறமே வெள்ளை நிறமே..
விழியில் பாதி உள்ள நிறமே..
மழையில் உடையும் தும்பை நிறமே..
உனது மனசின் நிறமே..
உனது மனசின் நிறமே..
உனது மனசின் நிறமே..

do you remember the times, when we used to listen to it together?
just you and me.
i miss those times
i miss you.
i admit it,
i am wrong.
how much longer are you going to ignore me?
do you not miss me as much as i miss you?

I WANNA BE WITH YOU, if thats okkay with you<33

2008-06-29T03:58:00.000-07:00

A Love Story

I shall seek and find you.
I shall take you to bed and control you.
I will make you ache, shake and sweat until you grunt and groan.
I will exhaust you to the point that you will be relieved when I leave you.
And you will be weak for days.

All my love,
The Flu

HAHA! i know what you were thinking you dirty minded ass!

2008-06-26T06:47:00.000-07:00

HAHA! damn cute lah vanez. *ahem ahem*

today someone thought that we wont get along! hmm, fine lah! but we still love each other. RIGHT? hahaa. anw, i have learnt that ignorance is bliss cause my BEST friend priya told me so. HAHA!

phone calls

damn annoying!!

actually,

not really:))

SHHHH!!

secret!

Fly me to the moon.

And let me play among the stars.

Let me see what spring is like On Jupiter and Mars.

In other words hold my hand.

In other words baby kiss me.

Fill my heart with song.

And let me sing forevermore.

You are all I long for.

All I worship and adore.

In other words, please be true.

In other words, I love you.

Fill my heart with song,

And let me sing forevermore.

You are all I long for,

All I worship and adore.

In other words please be true

In other words

I Love You<33

2008-06-24T06:03:00.001-07:00

NANDINI?!?!

ZOMG!

THIS IS TOO MUCH FOR ME TO TAKE.

flirtatious.
haha:)
but, im still the pro at it.
so ur not really doing a good job of making others jealous if thats what your trying to do:)

<33

2008-06-22T03:00:00.000-07:00

School starts again tmr.

me is happy,
cause of REUNIONS:)

ya, i just cant keep away no matter how hard i try.
your right,haha.

you know it more than i do.
does it take,of all people, patti, natasha, moni and my SISTER to come and tell you?

GOD! (haha temple!)

but still, i want you back
NORMALLY

not in this awkward manner.
it doesnt feel right.

TERM 3!

2008-06-20T05:16:00.000-07:00

and so it creeps back.

just as i think that it was over, it comes back.
why does it keep happening to me.
its so irrational.
forget it.
sigh.

plans.
hope it works.
i am such an idiot.
i need to manage my time.
no, i need to manage it more effectively.

hmm,
please understand me.
i need to be left alone for a while i guess.

anw, special thanks to my rufina for being there for me:)
lurv ya<33

2008-06-15T03:32:00.000-07:00

well,
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to my dear daddy!
i lurv you<33

we went out for lunch today, like ALL of us. the WHOLE family. after a long time. though it didnt exactly feel that way.
that part of me is still missing. you sit opposite me, yet you cant even smile. not even any eye contact. so, you have decided after all we have been through that you will continue hurting me. i guess i have to forget and move on.

we were actually surprising my patti(grandmother) cause it was her 70th birthday, and my thata(grandfather) for father's day. hmm, not bad. very coincidental.and i got this new wallet which is PINK in colour. hehe:) im sure vanessa will just DIE laughing when she sees it. (im assuming you know why) hahahahaahahahahhahahahahahha!

okkay, i think im losing my momentum as well as my mind. no, actuall i feel WAY better after getting out of my depression. all thanks to sindhu and vanessa:)) this rufina just came back today. and i know she loves me and misses me LOADS. its okkay sweetie. i miss u too.. we'll be seeing each other REAL soon.

ohh, i made this DAMN nice card for my daddy(if i say so myself). haha. i made a heart shape by pasting beads and my hands were all like sprained cos im not exactly artistically inclined:)) haha. but it was worth it. im so proud of it!!! my dad said hes gonna hang it in his office next to my picture:)

To all of us who are living in a world of illusion just remember that: We are able to walk on air, but only as long as our illusion supports us.

2008-06-13T18:50:00.000-07:00

and to think i didnt need you..

well, prelims are drawing nearer.

i miss my frens.
VANESSA, finally you decided to call me(:
me lurbes yous<33

never see you guys for so long.

i miss you.
i am such an idiot to miss you.
WANT
NEED

you WANT me
but
i NEED you

SUNDAY.
last try.
please dont fail me.

2008-06-09T05:41:00.000-07:00

MOVIE(:

i watched kung fu panda!

SO FUNNY(:

me lurbes it.
i havent had this much fun for AGES.
almost 2 years.

SIGH.

i should learn to let go and move on.
well, i have forgotten everything now.

anw, thanks to sindhu i am able to think in a much clearer light. its amazing you know. everytime i get all muddled up and stressed over smth, i just have to tell it to sindhu and rufina and somehow half of the load gets thrown away. lurv ya guys. and all thanks to sindhu's advice alot of things of our very difficult plan to follow is working well(:

ME IS NOT OBSESSED.
I AM DOING IT FOR THE GOOD OF MYSELF(:

well, prelims are nearing.
i must mugg harder.
i can
i will
and
i must do better than MYE.
i must concentrate.

2008-06-04T05:56:00.000-07:00

a little smile

and my day progresses.

plan failing.

all thanks to ur smile.

but then,
you just walk away
and it all fades off.

i go to feel it,
but nothing is left,
its a mirage.

ur smile,
ur presence,

now i miss it.
the smile,
ur presence
and even ur sweet lies.

will u give them to me
once again,
with all the love u have for me?
is it still as much as before?

pls tell me

YES

2008-06-02T04:40:00.000-07:00

every moment,

pierces me

deeper and deeper

can u not understand?

are u so self-absorbed?

maybe she was right

maybe you are taking advantage of me

but no matter what i do,

pls rmb.

its for you.

i do it thinking of you

maybe thats all i think of

you

you

you

can you not understand me
just once
pls.

it hurts me more than ever to stop talking to you than it does for you to stop anth else
i care for you and love you so
pls understand

if not,
pls be careful,
if not for me,
do it for yourself.

2008-06-01T06:44:00.000-07:00

SHOCKED

APPALLED

could you not have told me?
and i still protected you.
the lies.
it kills me.
will your try and understand?
be careful.
for the love,
for the care,

i am so blinded
will you ever understand?

2008-05-28T02:40:00.000-07:00

And one word,
just one word,
says it all.

STRESS:((

well, so the june hols have started, but my school has not ended. we still have like so much more to cover for so many more subjects. SIGH. prelims are drwing nearer. nowadays, i just drift off into my own world and.. wait wait. im supposed to be STUDYING.

S
T
U
D
Y

H
A
R
D

BETRAYALS

2008-05-27T03:47:00.000-07:00

betrayals.

u never know wen its gonna happen to you.

well, when it hits you,

you'll wake up with a start

differentiating ur true frens

from the pool of pple surrounding you.

(differential:)))

i love u mummy daddy and my BABY sister:))

i love my SAPTA

and of course any one else who i might have unintentionally forgotten to mention dat i lurv<33

ohh ya, erm.

vanessa:)

twilight<33

2008-05-25T22:49:00.000-07:00

"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb.."

What a stupid lamb.

What a sick, masochistic lion.

cross-country:)

2008-05-24T05:45:00.000-07:00

well, yst was cross country. i came in 71st:) thanks to MS vanessa:) haha. it was very fun lah. the last cedar cross country i would take part in. memorable. first it was supposed to be a SAPTA run. but it turned out... HAHA. romba kaevalamaaga. i lurv ya guys<33 OHH, the night before i had no transport planned!! and den i was frantically calling all my frens. den my wonderful mum changed her mind and decided to drop me:)) den, she dropped me and my sis at the BEDOK RESERVOIR. but i had to report at tp. LUCKILY i found my life saviour, debbie:) den, ms vanessa was late AGAIN. well, wad can u expect? she was in a damn awesome bus. BUS 8<33

tampines is a nice place.
long, but worth it.
what do u think:))

doggies.

2008-05-20T05:58:00.000-07:00

depressions.

yea, what if it WAS the dogs. or worse still MY SISTER??

*EGO CLASH*

please reassure me.
tell me ur smile was meant for me.
<33

ESPLANADE CONCERT

2008-05-19T05:46:00.000-07:00

WOAH! We were awesome mann! Full house:)) Last official performance for the sec4s. It was definitely a memorable experience mann. SIGH. Im gonna miss my choir so so so much. My a2!! SIGH! Well, my MYE results are out. And, well.. I guess it speeaks for itself.

well, now that i have more time to myself,

I CAN WORK HARDER.
I MUST WORK HARDER.
I WILL WORK HARDER.

my email cannot be accessed. SIGH. changed it. have to add ALL my msn contacts AGAIN. so depressing.

however, on a brighter note,
your smile, your sweet smile.
when will i see it again?
your small gestures were so sweet.
will i see you again?

THANKS TO MY SANGEE FOR HELPING ME TO CHANGE MY BLOG SKIN<33

ME LURBES U<33

ITS ALL OVER!

2008-05-08T06:45:00.000-07:00

MY EXAMS! all over! YAYNESS<33>

Well, have to get back to studying soon though. SIGH!

Well, we went to pizza hut for lunch today. Then we took 30 freakin mins to settle the dumb bill! haha. Den, we took pictures. SO fun.

small arguments between good friends. dont worry, they always get settled. after all, whats a good relationship without quarrels?

School as per normal tmr. Choir concert coming soon. SO EXCITED!! Cant wait! Had choir today as well, it was kinda fun. Sessions now days arent as draggy as before. I think i will miss choir terribly after 14th MAY. SIGH!

mmmmm! THE MILO TASTES SWEET! but i wanna taste MY milo.

7 down 2 more to go!

2008-05-02T05:40:00.000-07:00

YAYNESS! 7 exams down. 2 more to go. i feel like slackin!! NO! must focus. Haha, but vaynii best lah! she totally didnt practice for maths lah! but if she gets a lower L1R5 dan me ah, i will SLAP her lah!! haha:)) We have the BEST thalai lah. lurv ya<33>

LIT AND PHYSICS LEFT! I will focus. Just went for physics tuition got lecture tmr. Had amath ppr today. not too bad lah. expected it to be like a gazillion times worse:(( but thats okkay. a math and chem makes me a HAPPY person:)

ME LURBES THE SONG PACHAI NIRAME:)) so beautiful. shah! u like?? i bet u do! hahaha. rmb dat time we were singing it wen crossing road den this old chinese woman turned arnd and said dat tamil songs are very nice! haha! so embaressing mann:) i realised dat shah and i have similar taste in songs. Hmmmmmm. as long as we dont like the same _______ its fine. now i listening to minnale songs. so niceeeee:) SIGH! okkay okkay! I MUST MUGG!

I FEEL LIKE IM TOTALLY SLACKING!! okok. must go and study. after i finish listening to my wonderful songs. i will only blog after my lit paper is over. TUESDAY!!

maranthu poa enn manname!! unnai marappaenae<33

SIGH! will i ever? nature's secrets.

english MYE ppr.

2008-04-25T20:24:00.000-07:00

FINALLY! my oh-so-dreaded english MYE ppr is OVER. i am like SO gonna count my tamil as my L1. Hahahaha. I never thought the day would come when i say dat my tamil is better than my english butt, circumstances force me to do so. SIGHS! OMG! the song "breathless" is like stuck in my head. "i still cant believe dat ur mine, you juts walked out of one of my dreams.." ARGH!! its driving me CRAZY:)

SUDDEN CRAVINGS TO TASTE MY SWEET ICED MILO AGAIN.
VANEZ! wanna try some? it tastes GOOD. im willing to share;)

Choir concert coming up. SO EXCITED:)) cant wait to go back to choir after MYEs. MYEs end on 6th. must mugg hard for all of it. I must get my 6 pts:)) I must, I can, I will!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEETHEART- SHAH!

hope u liked the present<33 although im pretty sure you would have appreciated a piece of charcoal more:))

I LOVE MY SAPTAS.

always there for me in times of joy and sorrow<33

MYEs!

2008-04-22T02:47:00.001-07:00

So much stress now. SIGHS. MYEs start like this friday and i'm sick!! argh!! i always dall sick b4 exams mann. Sindhu, Rufina and my uncle, who is my doctor thinks dat im too stressed! Hahaha. Yea right lah. Anw, some people like Ms vanessa are living in a world of complete denial!! If you are a nerd my dear, then think abt what i am? i SUPER nerd or smth?! haha. think about it! Everyone KNOWS dat ur not a nerd and that u are simply in denial! haha:)

Anw, its a small world and you see unexpected people EVERYWHERE. Like a few days ago my darlingg sangee saw someone and sindhu just realised dat some pple are in their tuition. And just yst, when i went to bishan i saw some others. Really unexpected. But its only at times like these when you come to find dat some things JUST were'nt meant to be.

I'm on mc for the next 2 days now. SIGH! I must and i will do well for my mid-years. I can do it:)

I love myself<33

2008-04-18T04:48:00.000-07:00

Haha.MS Vanessa's friend sent this to me. So cute:))

Never upload for so long.

MYEs coming up. SIGHS.

No time to even sleep.

MUGG.

No more choir:( sadness.

cant wait for concert<33

nametags of life<33

2008-04-13T06:29:00.001-07:00

HOW DID U KNOW I WOULD BE THERE?

always there for me with the umbrella. sweet brother:)

i love my saptas<33

SPORTS DAY(:

2008-04-12T04:20:00.000-07:00

Yst was sports day and my sister's birthday:) Happy birthday my little angel<33>

Small dedication post to my little baby sister:

P retty little gurl

O utstanding personality

O NLY MINE<33

R eally funny! LOL.

A lways there for me

N aughty:)

I nnovative

Lurv ya my dear. Although we might fight at times, i still love and care for you. I think even though we fight alot, we are very close yeah? Well what can i say? i have such an awesome sister like you<33

Cedar TL did very well in Vs all arts<3

Lurv ya guys:)

TOMORROW.

Leadership training:))

2008-04-09T05:44:00.000-07:00

Today was SUPER fun. Actually, last night i was planning not to come to school. But, lucky this vanessa reminded me that there was 2.4km run. Then, i managed to get a gold for my napfa. Record lah, 4 years of GOLD:)

Thenn.. there was the leadership trng thingy. We were all expecting smth damn boring. BUT IT WAS SO FUN!! Haha. We were asked to spilt into groups lah. So my group members were vanez, aishwarya ALAGAGA, sameearah, deborah, alethea, delfi, ayesha, me and ELIZABETH>> our grp leader:)) We could do like 7 consecutive skippings. Haha. SAME AS ROHINI'S grp. we rock lah! haha. den the water game was SOOOOO fun. We all ended up getting soooooooo wet. Den we took a pail and poured water on rohini. anw she was wet wad? den we all got chased and even more wet and stuff. Haha. WE WERE ALL FLITHY AND STINKY AND SWEATY AT THE END! But it was SOOO fun mann.. Lucky i didnt miss today:))

sweet dreams till sun beams find you. sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you. but in ur dreams wadeva they be. dream a little dream of me<33

time.. as it used to be<33

2008-04-08T01:35:00.000-07:00

Today was our thalai's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAYNII! We bought a cake and appufied it ALL over her face. Haha. It was hilarious mann. Shah and sangee were holding vay and this stupid sindhu was concentrating on taking photo of the cake instead of smearing the cake on her. BUT, we managed to do so. HAHA. Oh, btw,the idea was vaynii's stupid girl.

I miss the old cedar. Old memories. No, actually the memories are the only things that are left behind. They are the only thing that wont leave me. I love my old cedar buliding. Good times and bad. We were there for it all. I am sure i am not the only one who misses you.

The time we used to spend. Its all being missed. Try and understand. If there is one thing in my life that i can redo, it will be you.. I promise. <33

Sweet memories keep haunting me.

i love me<3

2008-04-07T07:35:00.000-07:00

So many tests this week. Got physics,emaths,chem and geog. SIGHS. it was speech day on friday. damn fun. CHOIR performed and i am so proud of us. We actually did very well in the sch hall with not that good acoustics(:

Sorkallam. Cedar rocked the stage. I lurv u guys mann! Tl debators, you guys are great lah. Its not the end product that matters. Its the path you take that is more impt. Anw, congrads RI it was tough competition. I am sure we can do it next time. And RI all arts? I dont even wanna get to that.

I LOVE ME
I LOVE ME
I LOVE ME
<33

I CAN DO IT.

I MUST DO IT.

I WILL DO IT.

Its not to prove to anyone else. Only to myself.

smiles:)

2008-03-30T03:18:00.000-07:00

16 facts of life:

1.Don't compare yourself with any one in this world. If you compare, you are insulting yourself.

2.Don't complain about others; change yourself if you want peace.

3.It is easier to protect your feet with slippers than to cover the earth with carpet.

4.No one can go back and change a bad beginning,but anyone can start now and create a successful ending.

5.Easy is to judge the mistakes of others. Difficult is to recognize our own mistakes.

6.If a problem can be solved, no need to worry about it. If a problem cannot be solved what is the use of worrying?

7.'Changing the Face' can change nothing. But 'Facing the Change' can change everything.

8.Be bold when you loose and be calm when you win.

9.No one will manufacture a lock without a key. Trust that God created solutions for all problems we meet.

10.Every successful person has a painful story. Every painful story has a successful ending. Accept the pain and get ready for success.

11.Heated gold becomes ornament. Beaten copper becomes wires. Depleted stone becomes statue. So the more pain you get in life you become more valuable.

12.Mistakes are painful when they happen. But year's later collection of mistakes is called experience, which leads to success.

13.Life laughs at you when you are unhappy... Life smiles at you when you are happy...Life salutes you when you make others happy...

14.If you miss an opportunity don't fill your eyes withtears. Tears may hide another better opportunity in front of you.

15.If you keep doing what you have always done, you will keep getting what you have always gotten.

16.For things to change, you have to change. For things to get better, you have to get better.

Thankyou for the wonderful time last night.unexpected change of plan,but worth it<33
sweet earrings:) me lurves it. ONLY it<33

Poem:))

2008-03-27T06:54:00.000-07:00

The seven stages of women:)

All the men are fools,
and to us all the women
RULES,we all start out the same,
some with less hair than others.
Or so think their mothers,
dwelling in a world of their own.
They change their names,
that's when they start their games.
Breaking hearts and throwing darts,
irresistable (or so) we seem.
Why do fools fall in love?
SIGH
Is it the beginning of a new end?

The wonderful poem which our wonderful chim group came up with. Its struck u with awe hasnt it? Yea well we were surprised when we read it too! Haha. Our untapped potential. Today all out tchrs came in and told us that all of us had loads of potential and they believe that we can get distinctions! haha! i am SO motivated mann!

Anw, mid years are nearing. Sleeping later and later each day. SIGHS. ITS ALL PINK WATCHES FAULT!! GRRRs. LOL. ok, i completely losing it. Sindhu never come school today. It was so weird in school without her. Felt as though something was missing. DUH. Sindhu lah!

happy girl:)

HAPPY LIFE.

and saturday is still a no.
sorry.
:))

SMILE. BE HAPPY.

VANESSA! do u still lurv me? cos i lurv u<33

SIGHS.

2008-03-25T05:50:00.000-07:00

Sighing relieves your stress. Thats why we do it ALL the time:)) SIGHS! Well, im torn between between going out for dinner and going for the PLAY, Giselle in the park. I cant decide what to go for becos i do not know other pple's plans. AHEM! Haha. I mean how would i know if people do not tell me? Tmr got sports heats for 4x100m. Debbie, my "best fren" deborah, erm vanessa and i are taking part. hopefully it does not rain!! :) HOPEFULLY we win! yay! Its at toa payoh stadium. And tmr is 26th march. Its a wednesday. Erm, so ya. :) Btw, i dont think i can keep this up much longer so i think we will just start talking tmr or smth! Special thanks to rufina for helping us to commi=unicate btw. LOL. haha:))

will you still hold me tight and tell me you love me, like you used to? - i bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about.

SIGHS.

i loved you with a fire red, now its turning blue.

birthdays and pink watches?

2008-03-21T19:49:00.000-07:00

Okays. So rufz and i have learnt dat sindhu can come up with the most RANDOM names. I mean come on pink watch? Ok. Nvm. haha. But i swear, if i ever get my hands on pink watch.. GRRR!! And dont worry rufz i wont go bishan alone and even if i do and if i see pink watch, i wont kill pink watch w/o you guys being there to see the event:) haha.

Yst was my baby cousin natasha's 7th birthday. She is damn cute! She woke up dam early yst because she was so excited:) Sighs. Those were the days when you never had anything to worry about and you could just take life as it comes. So wonderful. And, it was also my uncle's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY(: I hope u liked the cookies i brownies. Dont worry i didnt make it but, i chose them:))

And stress flows in like tidal waves as the mid years approach. Sindhu hasnt started studying. Crazy gurl. Its gonna be a terrible chore of ours to make her start studying. And Ms Vanessa has apparently stopped emoing. Well nevertheless she still owes me a 5 mth yr old story!! Haha. jk jk. Relax dont start emoing cos i said this. Ya dont have to tell me anth you dont want to:) *respect for friend's privacy*

Oh anth that goes wrong, is now pink watch's fault.

If i am not hungry its all pink watch's fault.

If rufz doesnt do her BIO hw its all pink watch's fault.

And so on.. But it was DAMN hilarious. Shah, Rufz and i were in M during recess dat day and we were discussing abt stuff in general wen the topic of pink watch surfaced. Then we all laughed SO much dat we started to CRY. And our thalai slowly walked in and asked us why we were crying. I still doubt the fact the her brain has registered what we told her. Haha! its ok Vay! some day.. Just someday, you might get it:))

Misunderstandings.

2008-03-19T06:49:00.001-07:00

Today started off with me taking bus to school FOR THE FIRST time in the past four years. :)) I am so pround of myself. Anw, vanez said dat it is a must to blog about this incident so ya. Haha. okays. And she took note of today because she was sure another miracle would take place. But of course nothing happened(:

Misunderstandings. Loads of it. Apparently loads of people think i talk with alot of double meaning. And its becos of this double meaning dat we tend to go into arguments. Conclusion: STOP USING SELADAI! its gonna be hard. Sighs. I will miss it. I dont think we will able to stop like immediately. Gradual decrease i guess. haha.

LOOK! ITS BLUE FIRE. Fire is hot. And the blue colour is mesmerising. Once again no double meaning. So my darlingg vanessa and sindhu dont try to crack ur head over it *smirks* Haha. Oh! lastly, before i leave there are some beautiful lyrics in this world. SIGHS.

Teardrops On My Guitar

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

That I want and I'm needing everything that we should beI'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about

And she's got everything that I have to live withoutDrew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny

That I can't even see anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?And there he goes, so perfectly,

The kind of flawless I wish I could beShe'd better hold him tight, give him all her love

Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the lightI'll put his picture down and maybe

Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

He's the time taken up, but there's never enough

And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

Nobody needs to comment on anth:) It takes TIME for pple to appreciate nice music/lyrics. Ahems. I guess everything happens with a REASON.

First day of term 2.

2008-03-17T04:52:00.000-07:00

Its the first day.
Everything seems to be going well.
No stress.
No homework.

HAH! I WISH!

Aiyo! Piles of it! and its only the FIRST day!! OMG!! I am dying. And to top it all, some people are just freaking PISSING me off!! hmph!! Lord save me!

What rightfully belongs to someone will always end up with that person. Why are you fretting over it so much? If its supposed to be urs, u will GET it. But, on the other hand, if you do not end up getting it you know that it not meant to be with you. So ya. Its not in your hand to decide what you do and do not get. SIGH! sme people ar SO immature and.. ADAMENT?

Anw, on a brighter note, today we did our song analysis on "unfaithful" by rihanna. Beautiful song. Beautiful lyrics. Sung by a beautiful person. BUT OMG! the way aishwarya analysed it.. If rihanna were there she would have just committed suicide. She got us all SUICIDAL SUICIDAL... haha. And vanez decided to analyse the "i dont wanna be.. a murderer" part. SIGHS! Haha. Some songs are so meaningful.

Okays. I guess i gotta go complete my hw now. MYEs coming up. Everything is happening so fast. No time to breathe. But i can do it. I will do my best(:

I LURV MYSELF<33

Fading Memories

2008-03-15T03:32:00.000-07:00

people come.
people go.

BUT

memories stay.
there forever.
engraved in you.

fading memories.
fading thoughts.
or so i think.
they keep flashing back.

no.
they are here to stay.
forever in me.

SIGHS.

is it too late to apologise?

march hols over.
o levels nearing
esplanade concert nearing:))
more mugging coming up

BREAKFAST AT PP MACS, BDAY CELEBRATION ALSO AT PP MACS

2008-03-12T07:09:00.001-07:00

The first picture is us supposedly doing the titanic pose. SIGHS. A pathetic attempt though. Yea, dat day we were supposed to have a class breakfast but only 8 of us turned up. Haha. but it was damn fun lah! Well.. vanez and i decided to order hot cakes hashbrown and ICED MILO (its in caps for the same reason why its in caps in other pples blogs:) )haha. And Vanez took two straws to drink her ICED MILO. She says it an old habit. I doubt it:)) Anw, yea.. We were at cedarians favourite hangout, PP MACS. Den we decided to go to the spider web. (the above photos were taken there) Oh, btw, this spider web is behind SA:)) Haha..

The, today is rufina's birthday. A little poem for her..(its not much but its frm the heart<33):

Robust

Underestimated by some pple (RUFZ! u noe who ah?!?)

Fun loving

I LOVE U:))

Nonsensical:))

Always there for us

Anw, Sindhu and i told her we wont be able to make it and this loosu really believed us and got emotional and all. Haha. Den she saw us with the cake and all in macs.. AIYO! u should have seen the smile dat bloomed on her face mann!! amazing:)) haha. Anw, stay happy and bubbly all the way, Enjoy ur sweet 16th birthday! We will all get our 8/9 A1s together. We can do and we will do it:))

So ya.. PP macs two days in a row. Memories still lay unforgotten. They keep surfacing. Will they subside? ... Thats the mystery that the future holds. ...But in your dreams whatever they be, dream a little dream of me.

GEOGRAPHY song/rap?!?

2008-03-07T04:09:00.000-08:00

Hahas. Vanez,nabila,sameerah and i are SO talented. We came up with a rap come song. And it was so super hilarious. OMG lah! Haha.. We mixed the songs you raise me up, we will rock you and twinkle twinkle little star. Then, my WONDERFUL friend vanessa decided to add the UNFAITHFUL tune. The "i dont wanna do this anymore" part. Idiot lah she. Wait wait. Ellarukkum oru naeram varum illaiya? Haha.

Finally the march holidays are here. Rufz birthday coming up. Cant wait. Saptas got low budget for everyone this yr. But we will definitely celebrate everyones bday this yr. Haha. I rmb dat we did smth special for all of us's birthday. Hmph. Memories. The only gift that will stay with you forever. Its a beautiful thing isnt it?

stressology!!

2008-03-05T04:12:00.000-08:00

OMG! PILES OF HOMEWORK!
I doubt i am gonna make it to the end of this year alive. I have got 2 geog essays, one tamil essay and chem practical report all due tmr!! Oh, but my english/lit set-text tchr gave us a damn cool assignment. We have to analyse a song. That is damn fun lah. Oh, and aishwarya was like oh no! I dont listen to english songs! How?? so vanez and i suggested she can maybe do twinkle twinkle little STAR. LOL. But being the wonderful ANGELS we are, we asked her to join our group:))

ANW, i would just like to make a GENERAL statement,

PINK AND BLUE LOOK GREAT WITH ONE ANOTHER
BUT THEY DO NOT MATCH
NEVER ACCEPT ANYTHING AT A SURFACE LEVEL

Its Too Late To APOLOGISE.

2008-03-04T04:53:00.000-08:00

Yay! I finally got my wonderful apologise song. Such wonderful lyrics. And, the chem quiz is over. Finally! Got no more tests. My geog tchr finally decided to give back my terrible geog test and i miraculously passed! Haha. But i love geog. I will get my A1 in geog!!

Some things are still on my pending list. Some memories are still unforgettable and refuse to leave me, while i have forgotten some others. SIGH! I have to thank sindhu and vanessa for being with me all this while and knocking some SENSE into me as and when i needed it:)) i lurv you guys! dunno wad i will do without u<33>

I LURV MYSELF
I LURV MY FAMILY
I LURV MY FRIENDS
I WILL NOT LET ANYTHING AFFECT ME
:))

BRATZ test:))

2008-03-02T02:34:00.001-08:00

Are You a Brat?

My Result: Total Brat

Whoa. We'd tell you to stop being such a brat, but that might only encourage you. An all-around expert in areas of laying on guilt, whining, and much more, you'll try almost anything if it means people will pay attention to you and give you what you want.

Sure, being a brat can be totally fun. But don't expect that people will always respond to manipulation and, sometimes, exploitation. What you may not remember is that the easiest way to get what you want is usually to just ask for it. No whining!

What are you?
http://web.tickle.com/jumpto?test=bratogt&c=50652

ESCAPED JI LEADER!!

2008-02-28T19:04:00.000-08:00

Tight security, vigilent police officers.. We've got them all. But yet if he has been able to escape there must be a loop hole somewhere. And despite all this, if he still has dared to escape, he must be pretty brave. Traffic has been really slow near the bukit timah area. I am sure we will be able to catch him. However I am sure that at least a drop of fear still lingers in all of us.

Anw, i have managed to finish quite a load of my homework pile:)) Thank GOD for that. These few days have flown by so fast. One minute you are here and when you blink, suddenly the day seems to have died off.My choir concert is nearing:)) 'O' levels are nearing:(( *SIGHS*

I love a/e maths
I love chemistry
I love physics
I love english
I love tamil
I love ss/lit
I love geography

I will get my 8 a1s:))

<33 my one. my only. my sangee.<33

2008-02-28T05:17:00.000-08:00

Sweet-natured
Always put a smile on my face
Nee thaan en vazhkai
Gorgeous
Eats alot
Everlasting impact of ur presence
Talk alot:))
Active

MY SANGEETA:)) I LURV U! Our everlasting love for each other can never tear us apart. Everyone always jealous of us. Thats ok. We dont have to prove ourselves to anyone. Haha.

Haha. You always like to compare me with Hari. Of course we are similar in alot of ways darlingg! We happened to be related. Haha. But no matter what, i love you for who you are and i know you love me for who i am<33

SANGEE AND NANDI

TOGETHER FOREVER<33

Physics SPA:))

2008-02-27T01:10:00.001-08:00

YAY! i finished my physics SPA! im so happy!! lol. haha. there is a LONG weekend for cedarians all thanks to our beloved sec3s. they have gone for their OAC. yayness:)) haha.

APPRECIATE UR LOVED ONES<33

THE CREATION OF RUFZ AND NANDI:))

2008-02-26T01:51:00.000-08:00

From the far distance, a black silouette emerged. The wind blowing on his face. He arrives at his destinantion, potong pasir mrt station on his bike wearing his black velvetty jacket. He stops his bike and leaves it to purr while he waits for his life to arrive. He sees her and a wave of relief sweeps over him. They both meet and their eyes greet each other. Their silence says it all. "kannanl pessum penne". She gets on to his bike and they decide to ride to drop her at school. Suddenly, it starts to rain. "mudhal mazhai ennai nanaiththathe". But they do not even know that it is raining. Why that is so.. Nobody knows. He finally stops at the void deck opposite her school and she realises that she is extremely late. But what can she do? These are the things she has to do for love. Love changes a person.

Sighs. The lies people have to say to come up with new excuses for being late is miraculous. A mystery boyfriend, a mystery bike to come along free with that mystery boy friend. And, ALOT of explaining to do to her friends, teachers and parents. Haha. why lah? Just come on time lah loosus.

LOL.

:))

2008-02-22T19:02:00.000-08:00

yayness! all the stressful tests are over! finally.. woah! it was a damn long week.. i did not even get to sleep properly for like the whole week!! sighs! but its ok. i guess only if we work hard now we will all do well in our o levels. sigh! anw, i expected way more out of yst.not everything i wanted happened the way i thought it would:)) well.. aiya. wdv lah! the weeks are rolling by so fast! one day it is monday and before you know it its friday again. there is no time for anything at all.. when you come to sec4, you lose the joy of life. but somehow it still feels like the best time of your life. contradicitong yet it makes sense. haha. vanessa and i have been working on our "seladai' skills. and we are doing a GREAT job!! haha lit students wad?? lol. we' are all losing the little bit of sanity that was left in us:)) lol. haha:))

Physics Lecture..

2008-02-15T22:41:00.000-08:00

Today, i had physics lecture frm 8 all the way to 11. it seemed damn long but it was super fun. our tchr was telling us about relativity and einstein's theories.. haha. LOL. and miss SINDHU did not cme because she probably had to go sme where more impt.. idiot lah she! we've got physics SPA coming up!! and a WHOLE load of tests next week. got geog,trig and chem. sighs. its going to be a LONG weekend. must mugg like crazy.. so ya. :))

Valentines day<33

2008-02-13T04:58:00.000-08:00

Happy valentines day to all<33 this is the time when you show your love and appreciation for others! yayness:)) if you dont tell someone smth that you feel you should you might never get the chance to do so again even if you really want to. Wah! school nowadays so stress lah. cannot take it! So much homework and tests!! okays! must work hard! get my 8a1s:) yays! lol.

CHOIR<33

2008-02-11T06:32:00.002-08:00

Hey. My choir is gonna perform in esplanade on 14th may. So fun. but we're working DAMN hard. practice 3 times a week til 6pm. wah! sighs! but its so exciting. alot of new experiences. anw, today was freaking tiring . i got lit unseen test tmr:( sighs.. gtg and try and practice. i will get my 8 A1s:)) yay!! lol.

Finally..A blog of my own:))

2008-02-10T02:00:00.000-08:00

Hey. I finally managed to get my own blog:)) yay! Haha. So yea. Erm today was a pretty normal sunday for me. Studied in the morning and went to yishun for tuition. Yea.. OMG! School is starting again tmr after the LONGGG chinese new year holiday.. sighs.. Back to routine life. CCA, tests, piles of homework.. Ok. i guess dats all for now:))